First off, the start of this month saw me saying goodbye to Nicole after her fortnight here, and it goes without saying it took some time to get used to her not being around. Those two weeks have so far been the highest point of this year, and I don't want to forget the good times we had during those weeks.
Second, I've been feeling uncertain this past month - all brought on by seeing articles in the news that just fill me with rage and worry, mostly those to do with politicians living in their fantasy worlds as they do, and taking every penny from us ordinary folk as they possibly can. Also, I was told by the jobcentre that I will have to start a mandatory "work programme" soon - and from past experience, it'll be another brain-dead "training" course like just about every other one they've forced me onto.
I don't want to end up on one of those - but I've started to question whether having a job is even worth it, considering the fact a lot of people are actually worse off in a job than on benefits because of being taxed to death. Of course I'm still searching for jobs, don't get me wrong - but it's stuff I don't want to think about or deal with, and I just find myself wondering "Is this it? Is this the rest of my life?", and wishing for simpler times - I'm sure I'm not the only one who thinks that, either.
And last but not least, which hasn't helped either, is the Great British Weather. Aside from one or two days, all it's done since Nicole left is pour down, which always does wonders for the mood. Had a side order of thunder and lightning as well.
Sorry this is such a downer blog, but I just can't find anything positive about this past month and I doubt July's gonna be any better.
I'll leave you with some artwork:
"Grey Skies"
